Sunday, October 16, 2011

How Do You Feel About You?

Back during my high school days, I struggled with self-esteem issues. Whenever I would look in the mirror, all I would see is ugly. Even when people told me differently, I still believed I was ugly. I remember when I was a Senior and senior portrait day came around. I was the type of person that didn't want to have my picture taken. But in order to have a photo in the yearbook, I had to put my big girl panties on and take the pictures.

When the proofs finally came back, we had to pick which one was going to be in the yearbook. As I thumbed through my proof envelope I began to get teary eyed. Out of 10 pictures, I didn't think any of them were good enough for the yearbook. I found a flaw in every single one of them. My friend at the time looked at my photos and saw nothing wrong with them. "I'm so ugly" I said as one of my male classmates consoled me.

Attaining positive self-esteem has been a long road for me filled with lots of twists, turns and dead ends. I'm not where I should be, but I'm a long way from where I was in high school. Don't get me wrong, I have my "I feel fat" or "This doesn't fit right" days; we all do. But, in order for a person to feel good about themselves, that person has to believe they are beautiful and worthy of those good feelings. Back then, I didn't love myself. So, I didn't feel worthy of love or positive feelings. But now, shoot...I'm too hot to trot!!! Lol!! I'm just kidding. But seriously, you've got to love yourself and feel worthy of that love in order to change how you feel about yourself. Once you begin to do that, you will start to see positive things happening. You should try it for yourself!! Now, how do YOU feel about YOU???


  1. I once hated myself for not being a more socially accepted slim figure yet I always loved my curves. I went through the same scenario with senior yearbook pictures...very traumatic. My weight is up and down but I just embrace whatever size I am at the moment and make sure I think of all the other awesome qualities I have that make me beautiful.

    And you know you're beautiful Ashley. :)

  2. I know that now, but it took me a very long time to get to that point.

  3. OMG!!! Ahsley I had no idea. I always thought you were so cute and confident. I loved you then and now. You have always been beautiful to me :O)